I need help to underswtand how someone can tell you they love you and tell you all you need to hear and than still do such awful things to hurt you! So i have/had this boyfriend who was reall y all i thought i wanted in the begininng. One day he just disappeared no one knew where he was he came back three days later and acted as if everything was normal bad he did not look so good from what I hear. He promised to never do it again and he said he knew it was his last time because he had an awful time but two days later he did it again. Once again he came back but i was not so accepting this time but i started to get over it by the second day but now he is gone again. I have run out of things to say and things to do. I am at a place in my life were i can under no circumstances can I go backwards i have to much to lose like myself for  one. So anyone reading can you maybe help me any and all comments are welcome and wanted. Thank You so much for listening!!!!!!

Though you promised monogomy

Only me

That wasn't the case with us

Begged me to stay

While you strayed

You just couldn't stay away...

From her

In a moment of weakness and self-doubt

I sank to the depths of comparind myself...

To her

Wondering what it was about her that make me inadaquate,

lacking what it took, what had you hooked while you were trying

to get me out of your system

Was it that serious?

"Was what we had that bad?" I would ask

As you sank to your knees pitifully, reassuring me that it

was only my insecurity that enabled me to see what I see

Calling it imaginary, it was all in my head , he said

And maybe, maybe it was because you had me on some

MIssion Impossible type shit, spy private eye shit and all

I found was your lies and my suspicions about your missions

No lipsticks on collars, no new numbers attached to feminine names,

No concrete, tangible evidence of infidelity.

But you, you were cheating on me

Telling me not to worry, how I had your heart

And that you were just using her.

But to expose the truth, no boo you got used

Had you feining on the feeling of forgeting all of your problems

Rejecting your responsibilities, your commitment to me

This has gone on for far too long, how she plays you, delays you

From returning to me, can't you see

Look I don't know who she is but she sure as hell has you playing a fool

as well as me so I just have to see her one time for personal satisfaction

Finally face the competition

I asked around, no answers were found. No one seems to know who she is

Must have her well hidden in forbidden places, to my surprise she doesn't have curves

similar to mine, she's a form of a different kind.

It all makes sense now, the late night runs to the "store" to see that whore

You know you're not the only one right? she screws many others, the homewrecker

See the many unhappy families, I've heard the stories

I'd be lying to myself if I said I didn't see this coming

That fateful night when I would catch you in the act. I couldn't react.

Your eyes glazed over, post love-making hangover

You were laying there with fingers squeezing the syringe and she was

literally in your arms

Viewing the love bites she left, making her mark, claiming what was once mine.

He's now caught up in a new love flame, while ours has dwindled to ashes.

His heart belongs to Crystal now.